Saturday, January 26, 2008
What's the point, really.
I wrote the title and I don't know what to write anymore.
It's so wtf-ish.
Okay, okay.
So.
I'm currently under the " aiya-I-don't-wanna-do-anything-but-I-still-think-about-it-alot" mode?
He's so far away.
On the day of getting our results, he was so near, like two or three people away, but it was like so distant.
/We/ were so distant.
But what the heck, we weren't even close in the first place.
And I'm most probably the only one who felt that way.
One-sided thing, yo.
And it sucks.
Heard something that wasn't really nice to the ears.
Someone, obviously a girl, asked him if he wanted to go to TP's Open House with her group of friends.
It's just... fishy.
A girl ask a boy.
A BOY.
JUST ONE.
And not like, together with his group of friends or something.
It's so obvious.
And I got sad, envious, amazed, all three emotions together at that moment.
Sad, because I just... let something like that happened.
Not that I could do anything about it... but just, it's damn sickening to be acting like " hey, it's no big deal. Friends asking friends to go out together, no big deal la."
I've had enough of feeling like this... but I can't do anything about it, because I'm a coward.
Envious, because she actually talked to him and they actually saw each other at TP even though they went separately. Sheez, she got to see him.
Amazed, because HOW COULD SOMEONE BE SO DARING TO ASK A GUY OUT AND... JUST ONLY HIM OUT? Woah. I know, probably it's just me who got amazed, 'cause most would think that it's perfectly normal, but it's just really amazing for me la 'cause once again, I'm a coward.
Yadda yadda. ( I love that word. )
Yeah.
I just walked past him after KT and I decided to leave the hall.
Walked past like... he's a complete stranger.
I don't know if he noticed me.
I doubt he did.
But at that moment I walked past him, it was... just... my mindset was like... " Okay, I'mma just pretend I'm really calm, and that I CAN be perfectly normal infront of him, and that he's not really important la, yadda yadda."
But truth is, he /is/ important.
And I wasn't calm.
And I cannot be perfectly normal infront of him.
I get all nervous and uncomfortable when I see him.
sheez.
I don't know what powers he has.
Stupid la, make me feel like that.
It's so wtf-ish.
Okay, okay.
So.
I'm currently under the " aiya-I-don't-wanna-do-anything-but-I-still-think-about-it-alot" mode?
He's so far away.
On the day of getting our results, he was so near, like two or three people away, but it was like so distant.
/We/ were so distant.
But what the heck, we weren't even close in the first place.
And I'm most probably the only one who felt that way.
One-sided thing, yo.
And it sucks.
Heard something that wasn't really nice to the ears.
Someone, obviously a girl, asked him if he wanted to go to TP's Open House with her group of friends.
It's just... fishy.
A girl ask a boy.
A BOY.
JUST ONE.
And not like, together with his group of friends or something.
It's so obvious.
And I got sad, envious, amazed, all three emotions together at that moment.
Sad, because I just... let something like that happened.
Not that I could do anything about it... but just, it's damn sickening to be acting like " hey, it's no big deal. Friends asking friends to go out together, no big deal la."
I've had enough of feeling like this... but I can't do anything about it, because I'm a coward.
Envious, because she actually talked to him and they actually saw each other at TP even though they went separately. Sheez, she got to see him.
Amazed, because HOW COULD SOMEONE BE SO DARING TO ASK A GUY OUT AND... JUST ONLY HIM OUT? Woah. I know, probably it's just me who got amazed, 'cause most would think that it's perfectly normal, but it's just really amazing for me la 'cause once again, I'm a coward.
Yadda yadda. ( I love that word. )
Yeah.
I just walked past him after KT and I decided to leave the hall.
Walked past like... he's a complete stranger.
I don't know if he noticed me.
I doubt he did.
But at that moment I walked past him, it was... just... my mindset was like... " Okay, I'mma just pretend I'm really calm, and that I CAN be perfectly normal infront of him, and that he's not really important la, yadda yadda."
But truth is, he /is/ important.
And I wasn't calm.
And I cannot be perfectly normal infront of him.
I get all nervous and uncomfortable when I see him.
sheez.
I don't know what powers he has.
Stupid la, make me feel like that.
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