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lol.. finally heres the mistake post. i dunno wat to name it leh... mistake part 3? lol.

kk... this happened on 18/4/06.. sigh.. during maths supplementary. i think i did sumthing realli wrong... and i didnt apologise to tat person..

tat dae, he moved his chair and sat beside me, to share the maths textbook, so i tot of lending him mine, and sharing wif kt. cuz i dun want share wif him. lol.
but.. BUT... teacher tot tat he took the book and made me share wif kt... and then teacher reprimanded him.. saeing " do u noe wat u did juz nw is wrong?" as in.. quite fierce like tat.

then.. he defended himself lar.. saeing " cher, is she lend me one.. " yea.. its true, i lend him de.. he didnt even speak at all. i juz gave him my book..
and this is when i did sumthing realli wrong..
instead of helping him by saeing out the truth, i juz sat there.. keeping quiet. ahh. why am i so stupid.
then after tat, he said " u always hai wo one." i think in a joking manner lar.. nt sure.
but.. man, i was like feeling dam guilty.. but i said.. " har? i lend u my book leh, wo zai bang ni lor." sumthing like tat lar. AH. im so dam stupid. hw can i actually sae tat.

so... like tat lor.. then after a while, teacher scold him again lar.. nt scold lar.. is sae...as in.. lecture like tat.

then i think teacher abit too much lar.. said sumthing quite rude like tat... then he wah.. dam angry. scary... then after tat.. like so quiet...

i think it all started becuz of wat i did lor.. if i spoke up in the first place, teacher wont like tat liao... ahh. all my fault.
and nw, i very scared of him.

ahh. sianz.

yea.. finally decided to write abt tat truth.. it wasnt sumthing tat can be forgotten juz one dae... up till nw, i still remembered it. things happening around juz reminds me of tat, i cant possibly try to even forget it. wat can i do? take it easy and move on wif life, afterall, life isnt juz abt him.

well, hes a nice guy, i muz sae. bt, i cant understand why he cant be like, more sensitive to other people's feelings. k, juz frm tat point, i decided to erase the " hes a nice guy" part. i dunno.. i think i hate him.. bt.. im nt sure.

you noe, when sumone saes he/she likes u, u will definitely want tat person to onli talk abt his frens, sch stuffs etc, but NOT abt other girls. yea, i noe, its his freedom to talk abt other girls, but... hey, he should be more sensitive. blah.

so, like i said, when a person sae he/she likes u, and u too , felt the same, u wouldn't tot tat it would end so dam fast and its like.. ending without realli starting. u get wat i mean rite.
and the WORST part is, he fell in love again juz shortly after the ending. FALLING IN LOVE wif another person so dam fast. if u realli like the previous person, after u two ended, u should at least like, felt sad or sumthing rite.. i mean, aiya, i dunno. it juz makes the other party wonder if u realli did like her/him be4.

k.. wat will u do, if tat person tat he/she likes, is actually ur best fren. man. i hate tat.
its like, so dam awkward and u juz dunno wat to do abt it. and ur best fren definitely wont feel gd abt it either. and juz becuz of one person, theres like.. dong yao between the frenship of the two frens. bt luckily, my fren and i hor, didnt realli get bothered by it lar. xD k.. i dun hab the right to tell him who to like and nt to like, cuz these kinda things usually come without u noeing it one.
bt, he actually ASKED me things abt my best fren. hey, spare a thought for me pls. theres like other frens for u to ask, and why, WHY muz it be me. its like, u deliberately want hurt me like tat. and i hab to put on a smiley face to cover up wat i actually felt. dam u.

then whenever i heard abt ur frens toking abt my best fren, man, hw should i react? laugh? cry?
blah.

sigh. guess i wont continue wif this post. whenever i tot of tat guy, i get so dam angry.

lol. after reading through the mistakes post, i realised tat nth in that post is related to mistakes. none at all. lol. actually i thought of realli writing sumthing abt mistakes bt found tat the post is getting long, so juz ended it. aiya, i nw feel like writing abt " the terrible truth", lol.. ahh. i go think abt it first then continue. =D

Blah. first post of the year 2006. Theres a lack of entries, i noe. Guess im juz nt the type who can do sumthing for a long period of time. Once i lose interest in it, tats the end of it.

However, todae.. i juz had this urge to pen down my thoughts. i nid to get it out of me. yet i cant exactly figure out wat tat is. blah. crap.

k... this year.. wasnt exactly a gd year, i muz sae. How can u, being separate frm all ur best buds and still feel tat its a gd year. bt.. its still kinda early to actually sae tat its nt gd. theres still a long way to go till the end of yr.
sigh. i hate being separate from my best buds, and hab to meet new frens again, do all those 'introducing urself' work.. be sociable.. i hate tat. i hate socialising. i dun like talking to ppl who im nt close to. its nt exactly dun like, the truth is, i dun hab the courage to do tat.
yea, i noe good times hab to end somedae.. and.. we hab to separate, bt its.. difficult for me to accept tat... we were such close frens and sigh...blah. i sae till like as if we wont get to meet anymore.

during the holidaes, we got to know which class we are posted to, and.. i was glad tat hy and i got into the same class... bt.. i dunnoe, theres this feeling tat tells me its nt true.. hy wont be in the same class as i am. then.. that very dae after kayaking, we went to check.. and yea, i was right.
we gt into different classes. and there i was, sitting down at the bench, trying to cover up my feelings. hy wasnt sure wat happened, and so, she went to confirm wif the teacher.
few daes passed, and i called hy to ask wat exactly happened, and its confirmed tat she and me are in different classes. After i put down the phone, i cried. i actually cried.

" how am i suppose to face the new class alone? How am i suppose to do tat without any close frens being wif me? who will be there to encourage me? who will be there to encourage me for my 2.4? ( hy hab always been encouraging me after she ran) " lots of tots went through my mind.. and there i was, crying.

it was hard for me to accept the fact. maybe to most of u, its no big deal. separate, then separate lor, can always meet up wat. but to me, the over dependent kind of person, its hard to accept. its a big deal to me.
blah. guess i shall change topic and stop toking abt tat.

new school year starts and the very first dae, i was almost late. -.- why the sec ones so kan cheong? why so fast line up le... make me so malu. sumore cant find my class. the suay-est ting is tat... eugene was also almost late! there we were, looking for our class and then me being so damn embarrassed. man, i hate tat.
hm.. then finally found my class.. so embarrassing. then went to stand beside kt. hahahaha.

then.. and yea, kt is my realli realli gd fren. although i muz sae tat we didnt realli tok last two years, for sec1, i think i didnt even tok to her at all. hahah. bt now i noe shes a dam gd person. starting of sec 3, there.. i made a realli gd fren. =D