Tuesday, April 18, 2006
Mistakes..
Blah. first post of the year 2006. Theres a lack of entries, i noe. Guess im juz nt the type who can do sumthing for a long period of time. Once i lose interest in it, tats the end of it.
However, todae.. i juz had this urge to pen down my thoughts. i nid to get it out of me. yet i cant exactly figure out wat tat is. blah. crap.
k... this year.. wasnt exactly a gd year, i muz sae. How can u, being separate frm all ur best buds and still feel tat its a gd year. bt.. its still kinda early to actually sae tat its nt gd. theres still a long way to go till the end of yr.
sigh. i hate being separate from my best buds, and hab to meet new frens again, do all those 'introducing urself' work.. be sociable.. i hate tat. i hate socialising. i dun like talking to ppl who im nt close to. its nt exactly dun like, the truth is, i dun hab the courage to do tat.
yea, i noe good times hab to end somedae.. and.. we hab to separate, bt its.. difficult for me to accept tat... we were such close frens and sigh...blah. i sae till like as if we wont get to meet anymore.
during the holidaes, we got to know which class we are posted to, and.. i was glad tat hy and i got into the same class... bt.. i dunnoe, theres this feeling tat tells me its nt true.. hy wont be in the same class as i am. then.. that very dae after kayaking, we went to check.. and yea, i was right.
we gt into different classes. and there i was, sitting down at the bench, trying to cover up my feelings. hy wasnt sure wat happened, and so, she went to confirm wif the teacher.
few daes passed, and i called hy to ask wat exactly happened, and its confirmed tat she and me are in different classes. After i put down the phone, i cried. i actually cried.
" how am i suppose to face the new class alone? How am i suppose to do tat without any close frens being wif me? who will be there to encourage me? who will be there to encourage me for my 2.4? ( hy hab always been encouraging me after she ran) " lots of tots went through my mind.. and there i was, crying.
it was hard for me to accept the fact. maybe to most of u, its no big deal. separate, then separate lor, can always meet up wat. but to me, the over dependent kind of person, its hard to accept. its a big deal to me.
blah. guess i shall change topic and stop toking abt tat.
new school year starts and the very first dae, i was almost late. -.- why the sec ones so kan cheong? why so fast line up le... make me so malu. sumore cant find my class. the suay-est ting is tat... eugene was also almost late! there we were, looking for our class and then me being so damn embarrassed. man, i hate tat.
hm.. then finally found my class.. so embarrassing. then went to stand beside kt. hahahaha.
then.. and yea, kt is my realli realli gd fren. although i muz sae tat we didnt realli tok last two years, for sec1, i think i didnt even tok to her at all. hahah. bt now i noe shes a dam gd person. starting of sec 3, there.. i made a realli gd fren. =D
However, todae.. i juz had this urge to pen down my thoughts. i nid to get it out of me. yet i cant exactly figure out wat tat is. blah. crap.
k... this year.. wasnt exactly a gd year, i muz sae. How can u, being separate frm all ur best buds and still feel tat its a gd year. bt.. its still kinda early to actually sae tat its nt gd. theres still a long way to go till the end of yr.
sigh. i hate being separate from my best buds, and hab to meet new frens again, do all those 'introducing urself' work.. be sociable.. i hate tat. i hate socialising. i dun like talking to ppl who im nt close to. its nt exactly dun like, the truth is, i dun hab the courage to do tat.
yea, i noe good times hab to end somedae.. and.. we hab to separate, bt its.. difficult for me to accept tat... we were such close frens and sigh...blah. i sae till like as if we wont get to meet anymore.
during the holidaes, we got to know which class we are posted to, and.. i was glad tat hy and i got into the same class... bt.. i dunnoe, theres this feeling tat tells me its nt true.. hy wont be in the same class as i am. then.. that very dae after kayaking, we went to check.. and yea, i was right.
we gt into different classes. and there i was, sitting down at the bench, trying to cover up my feelings. hy wasnt sure wat happened, and so, she went to confirm wif the teacher.
few daes passed, and i called hy to ask wat exactly happened, and its confirmed tat she and me are in different classes. After i put down the phone, i cried. i actually cried.
" how am i suppose to face the new class alone? How am i suppose to do tat without any close frens being wif me? who will be there to encourage me? who will be there to encourage me for my 2.4? ( hy hab always been encouraging me after she ran) " lots of tots went through my mind.. and there i was, crying.
it was hard for me to accept the fact. maybe to most of u, its no big deal. separate, then separate lor, can always meet up wat. but to me, the over dependent kind of person, its hard to accept. its a big deal to me.
blah. guess i shall change topic and stop toking abt tat.
new school year starts and the very first dae, i was almost late. -.- why the sec ones so kan cheong? why so fast line up le... make me so malu. sumore cant find my class. the suay-est ting is tat... eugene was also almost late! there we were, looking for our class and then me being so damn embarrassed. man, i hate tat.
hm.. then finally found my class.. so embarrassing. then went to stand beside kt. hahahaha.
then.. and yea, kt is my realli realli gd fren. although i muz sae tat we didnt realli tok last two years, for sec1, i think i didnt even tok to her at all. hahah. bt now i noe shes a dam gd person. starting of sec 3, there.. i made a realli gd fren. =D
# posted by Yi Jie @ 9:43 PM 
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