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shit.. i think i flunked my english oral. bt heck lar. Over liao.

2dae... nth much... im still trying to sort out what that weird feeling is... bt i think im gonna take a LONG time to figure that out.. bt i dun care, i will still try to...

2dae very tired also... i dun think my panda eyes will ever go away... i dun think i can stay normal.. as in normal eyes.. nt panda eyes... sigh... holidaes also gt panda eyes... school days? dunnid sae liao.. surely gt.. SIGH.

as im typing this, im already in the half asleep mode... *shakes head* STAY AWAKE!
k.. lame shit... bt.. wateva lar.

hw to get rid of panda eyes! tell me.. help me.. cannot stand it already. like.. no jing shen like that.. not gd.. muz hab jing shen then gd..

cannot tahan already. very tired. bt nw 9pm onli... so early..

think im going to fall sick soon... warm warm one.. bt like that also gd.. go sch very stress.
how i wish i can stay at home all the time.
i want to graduate ASAP... i want.. i cant wait...
dunno gt how many months of holiday... can play until siao... bt the prob is... HAVEN EVEN EOY YET. argh.

quick.. i wan go sec4.. then quickly do O'lvls... then quickly pass... then quickly posted to poly... then quickly leave sec. sch... quick quick quick..

sigh. every part of my body is aching nw. siao one. do push ups also can become like that... everywhere ache. i long time didnt exercise liao, perhaps.
30 pushups... 2 endurance one.. siao...
leg pain ah... sian.

sigh. find sum day harpy go out together.. bt.. todae.. SIGH~
px like change liao... SIGH~
i dunno lar, its juz this feeling that she change liao.
todae i go her class, as usual, to borrow the oral communication book, then be4 that, i got msg her.. sae.. " ur eng end le ma." and " lend me 2 books." bt there isnt any reply.
then i juz went over to her class, then through the window, i sae.. " px, lend me ur book." then she sae.. " i lend atikah liao."

bt.. she juz like... hw to sae ah.. i gt this feeling that she like.. the way she reply like.. juz ying chou me like that.. i dunno hw to describe.. bt its like.. she reply without realli looking at my direction lor... she juz turn look then haven finish wat she is saeing, she look at sumwhere else liao.. like.. sigh. i dunno lar.

then every morning i will msg her de mah.. sae.. meet at carpark all these. then i always start wif.. where u.. then she will reply ah.. then i sae.. meet at carpark ah. then she wont reply liao.. sumtimes she will lar, bt sumtimes no. i dunno.. maybe she didnt noe that she receive a new msg. aiya. i dunno.

even if she realli change, i cant do anything abt it.

im realli starting to lose hope liao. bt.. does it realli matter, when she dun seem to cherish it at all... maybe she even forgot that harpy exists. ah.

wan go then juz go lar. i cant hold her back.. which i tot i could.